Natalie has a morphine pump now to control the pain. It hurts so bad to swallow and talk. She had some struggles today regarding this. She periodically vomits because of the stomach acid, then it hurts terribly against her mouth and throat sores. Moments ago I was playing checkers with her and she started to cry as she held her head and said, "no, no, no, please no, I don't want to throw up" trying to tell herself to make it go away. It takes a while for her to calm down and feel somewhat comfortable after such an event. I wish so bad I could make it all go away.
This afternoon Matthew was able to visit her...for the first and last time. Her face brightened right up to see him. They played checkers and she beat him...she is good (lots of practice). He did some dances for her and kept his mask on the entire time. She was getting so sleepy but wouldn't fall asleep because she was afraid that if she did, he wouldn't be there when she woke.
We read stories together and articles from the Friend. I gave her several foot rubs. Things are always better after a foot rub. I have Evie with me and considered sending her home, but she talked me into leaving her here. She had truly enjoyed her baby more today than ever. Natalie is so amazing!!! We are so proud of her.