Thank you to so many for another great blood drive (Highland). I wish I could call each person who has helped in any way and personally thank you.
The days are feeling so long. Alice is improving each day (we think), but it's ever so slight. She vomits most of the day and night. Her poor little legs are so weak. She does not want to stand because she is too weak. Natalie was forced to get out of bed and walk to the bathroom throughout the day and night. I really think that made a difference in her strength recovery. Physical therapy comes periodically to help Alice, however, the real problem is that she is too sick to do much. Soon this will be behind us and the memories will be more sweet than sad, largely because of the much love and support we have been enbraced by.
It feels so strange each night as we gather for prayer, to have Alice away. When the children pray they ask that Alice can come home soon. We miss her so much. Her favorite place is under the stairs...the play closet. Her little kitchen set and dollies are there. That light under the stairs has not been on for a while.
It's amazing to me how much a little person can shape your life in two short years. Since she was born she has been a little bit sunshine to everyone.
I clearly remember about 10 months ago when she was ill in the hospital...I was having a really hard time during this stay and felt very scared. One night I was home with the other children and I was so restless and emotional. I gathered the older three children and asked them to help me because I was sad. We decided to pray, as we knelt down together and prayed for Alice, I remember telling Heavenly Father that we need Alice in our family and pleaded that she might get better. I soon felt a peaceful feeling in my heart and knew that Alice holds a very special place in our family, an important role...and yes we need her. No wonder it seems so empty without her around.
Tomorrow will be another day closer :)