I woke this morning early in anticipation for when the doctors would make their rounds and find out if Alice's ANC would have improved. Before they came, I sat by her side and watched her. I could tell her lips were a little more swollen and she felt warm. I am weary of fevers as they can be a sign of infection, however they can be a sign of engraftment too. When the doctors came she was still asleep. Their report was that yet again her white cell count was up to 800 but still no ANC count. They explained to me that this is not out of the ordinary, however if she does not show signs of engraftment within the next few days, the plan would be to tweak her medication dosage. They informed me that on occasion the med dosage amount can suppress the engraftment process. They were confident in their delivery but I could tell it was also given with a bit of caution. I believe it was because when a patient is taken off too quickly from the high dosage of medications, their reaction to it will vary. I'm trying not to think about that until it needs to happen....one day at a time.
Lisy is there now, Alice needs her mother. As fathers, we can do many things, but there really isn't a substitute for the healing power of a mother's love.